messy thoughts that won’t leave me alone

I don’t know what the meaning of life is. My heart’s first reaction is God. The meaning of life is God. But I don’t really know what that means. I don’t really know who, or what, God is either. Maybe the meaning of life is finding out who God is. Sometimes I think God is…

Nudge?

Business school is definitely not the easiest place to feel or look like a follower of God. Truthfully, stepping between school and the church, I feel looked down upon because “pursuing a career in finance” doesn’t exactly sound as selfless and Christian-ish as pursing nursing, teaching, ministry, etc. Here’s the paradox that seems to be…

Wholehearted Health

I believe in health, but I know that is complicated. I know that my relationship with diet and exercise could be improved. Like a lot of women, I tend to calorie-count, exercise obsess, and feel guilty about what I eat far too often. However, I am blessed to have a sense of self-awareness that keeps…

Good grief

“God allows us to feel the frailty of human love so that we’ll appreciate the strength of His.” – CS Lewis A year ago, I made this blog as a New Year’s resolution thinking I had it all figured out. I saw Christianity as a one way highway to the good life – and I…

Beauty in Becoming

I am learning. Gradually, painfully, joyfully, beautifully, that life is fragile & time is finite. God pushes, I pull. I expect to follow God in a life of comfort. That’s funny, really. Lukewarm. Hoping to build a kingdom with a puny faith. What I’ve come to recognize is that my faith is stuck in a…

filled.

People told me for the last 6 months being a WOW leader is exhausting. They were right. People have told me for the last 6 months how pointless 90% of endless training is. They were right. People have told me for the last 6 months how much money I would spend on this week. Again,…

Goosebump Chasing

It’s easy to feel God in our goosebump moments. I’m talking about the way a worship song can urge you to lift your hands to heaven, a cabin full of young life campers crying together in their brokenness, a mission trip changing the way you count your blessings. These types of moments are designed for goosebumps. They’re…