messy thoughts that won’t leave me alone

I don’t know what the meaning of life is. My heart’s first reaction is God. The meaning of life is God. But I don’t really know what that means. I don’t really know who, or what, God is either. Maybe the meaning of life is finding out who God is. Sometimes I think God is…

Nudge?

Business school is definitely not the easiest place to feel or look like a follower of God. Truthfully, stepping between school and the church, I feel looked down upon because “pursuing a career in finance” doesn’t exactly sound as selfless and Christian-ish as pursing nursing, teaching, ministry, etc. Here’s the paradox that seems to be…

Wholehearted Health

I believe in health, but I know that is complicated. I know that my relationship with diet and exercise could be improved. Like a lot of women, I tend to calorie-count, exercise obsess, and feel guilty about what I eat far too often. However, I am blessed to have a sense of self-awareness that keeps…

Good grief

“God allows us to feel the frailty of human love so that we’ll appreciate the strength of His.” – CS Lewis A year ago, I made this blog as a New Year’s resolution thinking I had it all figured out. I saw Christianity as a one way highway to the good life – and I…

Beauty in Becoming

I am learning. Gradually, painfully, joyfully, beautifully, that life is fragile & time is finite. God pushes, I pull. I expect to follow God in a life of comfort. That’s funny, really. Lukewarm. Hoping to build a kingdom with a puny faith. What I’ve come to recognize is that my faith is stuck in a…

filled.

People told me for the last 6 months being a WOW leader is exhausting. They were right. People have told me for the last 6 months how pointless 90% of endless training is. They were right. People have told me for the last 6 months how much money I would spend on this week. Again,…

Goosebump Chasing

It’s easy to feel God in our goosebump moments. I’m talking about the way a worship song can urge you to lift your hands to heaven, a cabin full of young life campers crying together in their brokenness, a mission trip changing the way you count your blessings. These types of moments are designed for goosebumps. They’re…

A Canvas

Today, I woke up with some aches & doubts, but I woke up. Life may not be perfect, but I am undoubtedly blessed. If I were home right now, there is zero doubt it my mind that I’d be taking out this overwhelming amount of negative energy by painting my feelings away late into the…

Be Strong & Take Heart

In my distress, I called out to the Lord and He answered me. -Jonah 2:2 God doesn’t always give us the answer we want to hear. It’s taken me a long time to learn that. I might not always fully understand His plan. Why does God cause heartbreak? Am I foolish to feel joy and peace and…

Running to Healthy

Song of songs 4:7 – You are altogether beautiful, my darling, there is no fault within you. I have always loved running. I’ve always loved fitness & eating healthy & overall living a lifestyle that makes my body feel good. There’s nothing wrong with this! Heck, I am so lucky that God gave me a naturally…