Ready Set

“These are the terms, now what is the invitation?” When the uncertainty and unmet expectations of these times crowd my mind – I remind myself to channel my inner Elizabeth Gilbert – who has taught me while that in circumstances I can’t control, what I do get to choose is how I react. It’s been…

2019

I gathered 2019’s most significant guests, Love, Pain, Faith, Change, and I – to look back on our journey together, and celebrate the ways we have grown.   First, I looked to love. “It’s been quite a year for us, hasn’t it? But you are still my favorite teacher.” “I’ve learned your presence is most…

Forward

I am learning everyday to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be inspire and not terrify me.  Fall quarter taught me about the light in changing direction when my comfort zones no longer served me peace. I learned to stop fighting change – and day by day cultivate hope…

Rising

There’s a lots of moving parts, but here’s my best shot at an attempt at summing up four heavy but growth-filled months of what I can look back in hindsight and call the deconstruction of my childlike faith. — Every summer since coming to Cal Poly, I’ve tried everything to escape spending my summer at…

Holy Ground

It’s been months since I’ve felt at home in my own skin. I crawled my way to the end of the quarter, gave up an internship that I dreamed about all year, and continue to wrestle day after day to find the faith I used to ground myself in. The whole back story is full…

An open letter

To the girl I hope to be one year from now: Today you sat on the airplane, ready to embrace the way spring quarter has a way of making things new – the vibrant energy of a fresh start. The girl next to you is staring anxiously out the window, crying on the phone with…

The In-Between

My heart has been walking through a transition space for an amount of time that is starting to feel like aimless wandering – trying to navigate what life looks like in time between “what was” and “not yet.” It is full of momentum & stillness, certainty & uncertainty, fulfillment but also emptiness. Perhaps we live…