Beauty in Becoming

I am learning. Gradually, painfully, joyfully, beautifully, that life is fragile & time is finite. God pushes, I pull. I expect to follow God in a life of comfort. That’s funny, really. Lukewarm. Hoping to build a kingdom with a puny faith. What I’ve come to recognize is that my faith is stuck in a…

Centered

I am filled up, refreshed, and reminded of who I am created to be. I thought God was bringing me home this weekend because my family needed me. But after a quick 2 days home it was clear I was the one who needed them so badly. Sometimes my clearest communication with God feels a bit…

filled.

People told me for the last 6 months being a WOW leader is exhausting. They were right. People have told me for the last 6 months how pointless 90% of endless training is. They were right. People have told me for the last 6 months how much money I would spend on this week. Again,…

Fruitful

Ephesians 3:17-19 I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power together to grasp how wide and how long and how deep is the love of Christ.  A month ago, I wouldn’t have bet a million dollars that folding laundry for a month would change my life. But I left 25 days of…

Goosebump Chasing

It’s easy to feel God in our goosebump moments. I’m talking about the way a worship song can urge you to lift your hands to heaven, a cabin full of young life campers crying together in their brokenness, a mission trip changing the way you count your blessings. These types of moments are designed for goosebumps. They’re…

Construction site

I think I forget that I am not finished yet. I fear being insignificant. I fear not being enough for people. Or perhaps I fear not being enough for God..? Lately, I forget the beauty of committing our lives to Christ. Initially discovering the beauty of Christ is full of joy & peace & freedom – talk…

Humanness

“I am sure that God keeps no one in waiting unless He sees that it is good for them to wait.” -CS Lewis So, I haven’t published anything for over a month. Why? In all honesty, I would call it embarrassment – or perhaps guilt – of a shaken faith. Spring quarter, I’ve thrown God…