2019

I gathered 2019’s most significant guests, Love, Pain, Faith, Change, and I – to look back on our journey together, and celebrate the ways we have grown.   First, I looked to love. “It’s been quite a year for us, hasn’t it? But you are still my favorite teacher.” “I’ve learned your presence is most…

Forward

I am learning everyday to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be inspire and not terrify me.  Fall quarter taught me about the light in changing direction when my comfort zones no longer served me peace. I learned to stop fighting change – and day by day cultivate hope…

Rising

There’s a lots of moving parts, but here’s my best shot at an attempt at summing up four heavy but growth-filled months of what I can look back in hindsight and call the deconstruction of my childlike faith. — Every summer since coming to Cal Poly, I’ve tried everything to escape spending my summer at…

Holy Ground

It’s been months since I’ve felt at home in my own skin. I crawled my way to the end of the quarter, gave up an internship that I dreamed about all year, and continue to wrestle day after day to find the faith I used to ground myself in. The whole back story is full…

An open letter

To the girl I hope to be one year from now: Today you sat on the airplane, ready to embrace the way spring quarter has a way of making things new – the vibrant energy of a fresh start. The girl next to you is staring anxiously out the window, crying on the phone with…

The In-Between

My heart has been walking through a transition space for an amount of time that is starting to feel like aimless wandering – trying to navigate what life looks like in time between “what was” and “not yet.” It is full of momentum & stillness, certainty & uncertainty, fulfillment but also emptiness. Perhaps we live…

Here we come

“If you want to get warm you must stand near the fire. If you want to get wet you must get into the water. If you want joy, power, peace, eternal life, you must get close to, or even into, the thing that has them.” -C.S. Lewis I am back to reality, and I love…