Leaning In

“Patience means trusting God even when the circumstances haven’t yet changed.”

Let’s start simply.

Spring quarter has hit me like a truck. I would be lying if I didn’t admit the truck hit my faith pretty hard too.

Busy, busy, busy. Winter quarter & a schedule of 3 GE’s was a silly little tease compared to this 16 unit nightmare of attempting to become a business woman. (Breathes heavily.) Basically, the last 4 weeks have felt like a constant race to catch up. Super fun, really. But where is God in the midst of things?

It sucks to know I have totally put Jesus on the back burner for the last couple of weeks. Little by little, I’ve given in to the temptation of losing my patience with God. I’ve let frustration of not understanding where God is or where He’s taking me steer me into completely ignoring His presence. This bump in the road seemed to be just a bit too long – I figured God forgot about it, basically. Since God’s got bigger things to worry about, I’m going to take this one solo.

For now, I’ll worry about all the things I’m busy with, and we can catch up later, God, when we’ve both got some time on our hands. Good deal.

Wrong-o.

Pushing God to the side to try and ignore brokenness and dependence on him leaves us empty & unsatisfied. Funny enough, God doesn’t just ask us to trust Him when we understand where He’s taking us. God asks, “Do you trust me when my answer is wait?”

I guess I am learning that transitions take time. Sometimes more than we expect. And growth = growing pains. Today I’m praying that God allows me to understand that these pains are growing ones, and that it’s not too late to ask Him to hold my umbrella for this storm. He planned it, after all.

Hebrews 6:15 – “And so it was, that she having waited long & endured patiently realized and obtained what God has promised.”

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