Today, I am learning to live in the present, in the presence of the one who created it.
I am learning that my imperfections – my doubts – will never override God’s promises for my life. I am learning not to worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. I am learning that doubt and worry are robbers of abundant, present, living.
God is challenging me to embrace change and rely fully and completely on Him for the first time in a long time. Not going to lie Big Guy, I thought I had a pretty firm grip on the identity in Christ thing, but as of right now I am utterly lost.
As humans, we throw away things that are broken, we deem them worthless. God – on the other hand – takes things that are broken and makes them new and whole.
I am confused and broken and lonely – but it is wonderful.
It is wonderful because it took God had to take away everything temporary I identified myself with for me to realize that my identity is special because I am a daughter of the King. Day by day, I am learning that my worth is not determined by a title, relationship status, GPA, or physical appearance. Rather, my worth lies in the fact that I was chosen and set apart, and I have a heart that is capable of spreading the love of Jesus. I am coming home to God’s heart.
Today, I am embracing change. And today, I am working on focusing my heart. Most importantly – today, I am learning to be patient. God is asking me to take a good hard look at my faith and ask myself with brutal honesty if it is the most important thing in my life. To reevaluate, and understand the real meaning of the name above all names.
My heart is a work in progress, I have a lot of work to do. But it is about time I fixed my eyes on the one who created it.